Hi-ho, hi-ho, it's back to work I go!

Yesterday was my first day back to work. Everything seemed to go very well. I wasn't a complete mess, and in fact, most people were pretty surprised at how well I was "handling" it. It felt really strange being there, knowing I would go home to my baby. When I first walked in the building, I felt like I'd entered a foreign country. A foreign country where I lived long ago, but haven't visited or spoken the language for a long time. By the end of the day, the sights, sounds, smells, and lay of the land started coming back to me, and it didn't seem so foreign anymore. I expect it'll take a week or so for me to start feeling "into" it again. I kept pretty quiet about my return yesterday, but next week I'll start being more vocal and letting people know I'm back. 

I know the one thing that made yesterday go so smoothly was knowing Kai was in good hands. He did wonderfully during his first full-day of daycare (he went last week for a couple half days, and did great then, too).  He had fun playing with the other kids, ate well, and even took a 3 hour nap! Melinda was amazed at how well he put himself to sleep for his nap. So far, it hasn't seemed to stir up any feelings of grieving for him. I know that he'll be well cared for at his daycare, but my biggest concern was if our separation would cause any attachment issues. It's probably too early to say, after only one day, but so far he seems to be doing very well with it.

This may sound strange, but we feel that my returning to work has finally made his arrival feel very real. Since he came home, it's felt so surreal. But now, with me back at work, and our lives pretty close to how they were "pre-baby", we're finally convinced that he's really ours... forever! :-)